5. “Secure Projections”

oh i’m so tired of trying to steal

what you offer me freely

filling a hole with empty promises

from other places, lies, and feelings

oh please lift me up

let me drink of your flask

the wine of reprieve

to break through this mask

cause i hide behind projections

of false emotions and security

but i can’t hold on much longer

from these dark endeavors’ fury

oh please take me in

remember me in the end

oh i’d start over again

if only this pride would bend

i went casting for luck

but that luck didn’t last

oh i could not escape

isolation’s task

of lonely restlessness

sleepless over the past

now i’m just looking for free parking

is there any deed that i can claim?

i folded cards wreathed in good will

the seeds i’ve sown have stayed the same

i sought control

but the harder i gripped

good fortune did turn

and the further i slipped